7-4-13 journal entry:
The factory plant hums in the background. Intermittent fire crackers go off in the distance, but I can tune them all out. The warbler has my undivided attention. My ears follow in his melody. I scan the land, my eyes transfixed on green, and wet, and green…
I’m declaring independence, my independence from society. To be in this world but not of this world. And to tune into the still, small voice of my Father who guides me all the way.
How wonderful His works, His mercies new every morning.
Sitting beside rushing water, I throw out a prayer and watch it float away…
Father, let me know Your plan for me…let me not miss it!!
I don’t want to go through the motions of living with out it. What’s the point?
I throw out questions left and right and in return feeling answers. Not hearing answers, feeling answers.
I feel love all around me. Deep and knowing, not superficial and fleeting. I feel strong in my declaration of independence.
Time alone is my way of going to therapy. Not only is it a free session, but the ironic part is that I’m never really alone. I’m humble enough to know I need this. I don’t have all the answers. Look, many people seek happiness in relationships, in alcohol, in buying things, in drugs, and some aren’t even aware they are doing this!
The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. Lam 3:25